5 in the morning.

📸: Myself

There is something so comforting about the air at sunrise. There is nobody around you, the day has just begun and the vibes outside are peaceful. Another new day is beginning. Take a moment. Breathe. Absorb. Be grateful. Despite anything that has happened the day before, the week before let it all go and rise again. Just like the sun.

When it feels like the rest of the world is sleeping and you’re the only one awake, peace and calming. The colours, the ocean it’s the tiniest thing in life and can make such an impact on your day.

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What makes you happy?

  1. Sister
  2. Mom
  3. Family
  4. Friends
  5. Coffee
  6. Cruelty free food
  7. Yoga
  8. The sun
  9. The sound of the ocean
  10. Candles
  11. Paying it forward
  12. Kindness
  13. Animals
  14. Shopping/Window browsing
  15. Goal crushing
  16. Laughing so hard your stomach hurts
  17. The colour yellow
  18. Long car rides
  19. Adventure
  20. The smell of the rain
  21. Music

Sister, sister.

I know you’ll read this.

Thank you for always being my biggest pain in the butt and my biggest fan.

I love you.

I can’t remember my exact thoughts when they brought you home, as I was only six. But I want to say it was jealousy, maybe envy, confused and happy. I was always the only girl and I always wanted a sister then when you were home and everyone came to the house it was so see you, the beautiful brand new little girl.

You got the crappy end of the stick growing up. Mom and dad splitting when you were still young but old enough to know about a split home. Having to handle babysitters so mom could work. Not having your dad around. Getting close to people then having them leave.

As the years went by it was clear to us and everyone else we were (and still are) so different. I would get mad at you for taking over the spotlight on home videos, or popping my barbies heads off but I always loved you.

I loved how whenever I needed a friend you were always there to come with me shopping or eating or just drive around. I took you for granted. We have said mean things to each other, have hurt each other in the past, tend to get irritated with each other (we make up quickly). I made a lot of dumb stupid choices in high school and wasn’t the best role model for you to look up to.

The choices I made when I moved away weren’t any better. I was gone away for your entire high school life and as hard as that was, I think it was the best for you. You were able to become everything I wasn’t. You wouldn’t have me around making fun of you for wanting to be involved out of jealousy cause I didn’t. You were top of your class. Involved with the school and having fun. Unlike your big sister in her days, chasing the parties on the weekends instead of studying for her finals. I’m proud of you.

I know I’ve still been away for most of your adulthood but take a minute and look how far you’ve come and how you have done it. I can’t express in words how proud I am of you. I don’t think you actually see how amazing you are to not only me but to others also. I know you get frustrated, annoyed, so many people have let you down but you always manage to rise above. Remember to not push everyone away. I know it can be easier but one day you will regret it. Trust me.

Looking back now I am so happy that they brought you home 21 years ago. Throughout our years of ups, downs, punches and name calling I wouldn’t have a loyal, intelligent, amazing best friend and sister.

I’m always an iMessage, FaceTime or phone call away. Or a plane ride.

Love you always.

Inspire.

The other night at my yoga class drifting off into the meditation world, the teacher said this quote to the class.

(SADLY I CANNOT REMEMBER THE EXACT QUOTE TO POST)

It was about doing something you love. As she was saying it I remember thinking to myself (firstly how long are we holding this pose for) and more importantly that is so inspiring. It hit me that I haven’t been so inspired or motivated in such a long time that I forgot how great of a feeling it was. Like a super power has taken over my body and I was ready to be in control. How can you expect yourself to change something how motivate others if you’re slacking in your own self inspiration.

I guess all the answers I may have been looking for was that Monday night on my yoga mat.

To whoever may read this,

Stay beautiful. Stay kind. Use your magic to make the world a better place. Use your inner powers to inspire yourself and those around you.

XO

27

Birthdays.

I’ve had some great ones and some awful ones. They can be the best night ever or your. Offers let down.

I find being away from your home, friends and family they can be a bit tough.

But this year I was not disappointed. I had to take a minute and pinch myself like is this surreal. How did I get so lucky to have all these incredible humans in my life. I felt so loved and got so spoiled.

My stomach kills from all the laughter and my heart is so happy.

I really hope people out there are loved and have amazing friends like I do.

Here’s to another year.

Job. Career. Dreams.

The best Advice from my dad:

“You spend majority of your life at work. If you’re doing something you love then it’s not a job.”

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I’m not the only one who has no idea what they want to do with their life career wise but hey I have a variety of ideas.

I put so much pressure on myself to have this beautiful journey of “life” sorted out. Honestly growing up I always thought come 25 I would be starting my family, owning my own home and already married.

WELL NEWS FLASH!

I’m actually SO happy that was not how my life ended up.

I’ve studied 3 courses in college and I am not using any of those skills I paid for with everyday life, but I have so many memories looking back and I truly believe all those memories have helped shaped me into who I am today.

From reading my previous posts we know I’m a waitress and I do 100% know I want out of hospitality. I need a change. A break. A whole new ballgame. I want to expand my brain. Keep me interested. Push myself. Challenge.

Unfortunately not a lot of people will either A) hire me on a working visa and B) hire you without any experience.

So here I am… coming into the end of 2017 and ready to take on a fresh start with 2018. Ready to study online. Ready to really think my options and see what I want to try. Well… I’m the most indecisive human I know. I’m at another crossroad after making pros and cons lists on where to start and what to do.

My mom always pushed me into the direction of college and after completing Social work, Sales and Health care I need to leave her out of my career decision making dilemma.

Something I always wanted to do was communications and plan events or be a spokesperson for a massive industry that helps encourage the world to be a better place. But I don’t want to be in my 30s starting at the bottom of the chain (again with the age vs life’s pressures). Or what about being a journalist I love to write ( “that’s a dead end job”). Something that has become my newer hobby Yoga..why not start yoga Instructing (“there isn’t any money in that it should stay your hobby”).

I.give.up

(Not actually, obvi)

I guess we will have to hold tight and see what the rest of 2017 takes me and begin to be ready for 2018…at this moment in time it’s all a mystery.

Working 9-5.

(Not actually though)

When we were young (well I used a lot younger than what we are at this current time), how great did we have it? Go to school, be with your friends, weekends off, summer break etc.

Now it’s work, work, work, work and little play.

I feel like even though I’m going to be 27 in a week, I’m stuck in my early twenties. I know so much more of who I am and what I want from life than before.

I wish I could be back in college, University, studying again, re-doing all the things that once scared me. Finding and re-inventing myself.

But I mean I guess that’s called growing up. Maturing, realising things, living life.

I don’t regret the path that I have taken because that has brought me here to this moment. Lying in bed, drinking coffee, listening to the birds sing as the sun shines through my window.

I have a great life and so far have lived a great life.

I have made mistakes, I have learned from those mistakes. I’ve taken chances, fell down and got myself back up again. Put myself out there, been rejected, fell in love, bought the ticket.

Most of all , I’m happy.

And that is what I believe matters the most.